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Sunday, October 31, 2004

my heart was feeling heavy during worship. it's the olevel thingy. it does get to me sometimes, pre exam symtoms. i couldn't get it off my mind and nvr worship God whole heartedly, until.. someone said God wants us to give him our everything, before we say what we are going to do for him during the holidays, He wants us to love him wholeheartedly first. the words spoke to my heart. i went home after JYC and studied finish all the chengyus. next, i am gonna start reading all my past compos, even though they..suck? yeah they do. sometimes i really wonder, why I, speak mandrin at home, dont score well in CHINESE? i also dont do well in english, but my english will always be better than my chinese. weird is the only word i can think of right now. feeling lonely is a..argh feeling. i dont want to feel it again. please. but there is always God to talk to i guess..

i feel so blessed by GOD. look, i actually got to go to China 9 months ago. i got to see what the world out there is like. i get to realize how blessed i actually am. i actually get to go up on a plane again, and actually travel. this june, i actually got to go church camp in Malaysia for church camp. we actually got to stay in a hotel and not in shacks. i actually get to go Myammar in december for the mission trip. i actually got the money. i want to thank God for all these.. not forgetting all the movies i managed to enjoy with friends and all the close friends i can share my life and problems with. they encouraged me and blessed me with their just-being-there.

nate

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